There are multiple factors that contribute to the questions you may have. You may not know what applies to you.
Who am I, which lifestyle suits me? How do I meet like-minded people? How do I engage in a relationship, and with whom? It’s also possible that you know who is right for you, but your environment reacts to it in a problematic way. How do you handle that? If you, after having felt very deeply what is right for you, choose to change your gender, you will often go through an intense (medical) process of acceptance and transformation.